Are you getting caught in patterns of comparison which leave you feeling stuck, full of self-doubt and like you are not good enough? This is a struggle many of us are having these days in both life and business with the rise of social media and the increase of the number of platforms available which allow us to become wrapped up in other people’s lives.
I have spent much of the past few weeks reflecting on 2016 and taking an inner exploration into what within me still needs to be completed, released and processed so that I can close off one chapter and create a clean slate for the new.
As I reflected on this year, I noticed that there was not a lot to celebrate or acknowledge on the external scale. Yes, I moved house. I began corporate coaching – a big growth step for me. And I took Awaken Radio to new heights with my mini podcast episodes. The show expanded in big and beautiful ways this year, so much so that it reached the Top 20 Health podcast list on Itunes.
Today’s episode of Awaken Radio was inspired by a realisation I had recently around a relationship in my life. I had found myself feeling frustrated, disappointed and sad with how someone in my life was showing up, or shall I say, not showing up. A whole host of emotions were being stirred up, and at the time I was finding it hard to pin-point what it was all about.
I was sitting on my bed working through my feelings around this, when I was guided to a book on my bookcase. As I opened up the book, there was one sentence that immediately jumped out at me.
It read; “Allow people to be whoever they want to be.” I immediately stopped in my tracks. Something in these words resonated deeply and seemed to be the hidden clue to what I was feeling.
I sat and pondered over what I had just read, and I was hit with a huge realisation.
The theme of surrender is one which has been flowing deeply through my private coaching sessions and group programs a lot lately. Many of us are tired of the fight, struggle and anxiety that comes from living in a constant state of control. We are craving freedom and ease, and deep within our hearts, we know that will only come through surrender.
Surrender is not giving up, nor does it denote weakness. Rather it is one of most courageous paths you can walk. It requires deep trust and faith and a willingness to step bravely into the unknown.
Each morning I sit on my sheepskin run, with my cup of tea and drop into my meditation. I bring my focus out of my head and into my body, and I tune inwards for guidance.
It can take me a little while to slow down my mind enough to tune in, and sometimes music or a guided meditation helps. But once I reach that clear space within me, beautiful guidance begins to flow onto the pages of my journal, and through the oracle cards that I select.
Over the past few weeks there has been one recurring theme bubbling up in my morning sessions – the vulnerability and fear of being visible.
At the beginning of this year, I made a clear decision within my heart that I wanted to expand and diversify the way I was doing business. After four years of working alone I was craving collaboration and connection.
I feel so blessed to be able to work for myself and do what I love every single day, but there are many downsides and struggles that come with being self-employed.
My heart was craving stability. My creativity needed support.
Over the past few days I have been feeling really reflective and have been looking back over my personal journey and all I have experienced.
As I was reflecting, I began mentally scanning for the external milestones I have reached or the external markers of my success. And I immediately felt my energy drop.
The catalyst for today’s post was an email that landed in my inbox. As soon as I read it, I felt the words of this post begin to form within me, and I felt that familiar stirring of energy within my body when I know there is something that wants to be written and expressed.
So I curled myself up on the floor of my mothers apartment in Melbourne with a cup of herbal tea, and I began writing.