Phew! I have been in a creative whirlwind over the past few weeks. New ideas have been flooding in and I now have a range of new projects on the go. Some are only in early stages, while others are drawing to completion.
I have been finding myself really flowing lately. Flowing with the energy what wants to move through me and I have been allowing it to pour out of me and on to the page.
But I must admit, as some as my projects are being ready to launch, a sneaky little self doubt has been creeping in. It has been questioning my creations. Asking, Is this right? Will this be valuable? Am I on the right track with this?
Projects that could very easily be completed, now seem to be dragging. It is as though there is a part of me delaying finishing them.
Self Doubt Is The Culprit
This experience has got me reflecting on the feeling of self doubt, vulnerability and fear bubbling within me.
For me, this type of feeling usually arises when I am in over thinking overdrive, attempting to fix every flaw that I see in my creation. And also when I am focusing on getting it right. I try to avoid errors, mistakes or failures, so I over analyse, questions and doubt.
Self doubt delays the creative process. It allows dreams to move forward at snails pace rather than lightening speed.
Self doubt creates paralysis. We freeze up. Unable to move. Unsure what the next step is for us.
Self doubt creates confusion and meltdowns. Eeek!
Moving Beyond Self Doubt
Lately, rather than getting caught up in my doubt, I have been observing it. Witnessing it. Noticing it.
And by doing this, I have started to take away some of it’s power.
This has opened up the ability to shift in to a new space of being. To form a new relationship with my self doubt.
And so, I am now relating to my self doubt in a new way. I have now decided that I am ok with getting it wrong, making a mistake and f-ing it up. I have made peace with that. As long as I get it out there.
I am no longer going to stifle up my creativity and self expression out of fear of how it will be received.
Self Love Is Your Antidote
Self love is a beautiful antidote to self doubt. Self doubt makes us feel small and powerless. But when we bring love in to the equation we realise that even if things don’t how we want them to, we are still ok. We are still perfect, whole and complete.
Moving beyond self doubt is about being willing to get it wrong, being willing to fail, being willing to not be perfect while still loving yourself in the process.
Maybe your idea will flop and no one will buy your product. So what?
Maybe during your first speech your voice will shake. Who cares!
Maybe the creative project your working on won’t match the vision in your head. Does that really matter?
Maybe the dream your aiming for won’t come true. Can you make peace with that?
Can you be kind to yourself even if you make a mistake?
Can you still love yourself even if it all falls apart?
Love Yourself Enough To:
Act. Even if you get it wrong. Just act. Just try.
Take that step. Even if it is the wrong one. Even if you flop.
Finish something. Even if it is not perfect. Even if it is filled with flaws. Just put it out there.
Trust yourself. Know that what you have created is enough. Give your dreams the the space they need to be born. Trust that if you feel to share it then it deserves to be shared.
Share your brilliance. Don’t keep the magic locked up inside of you. Let it be seen, whatever shape or form it comes in.
I would love to hear your thoughts, beautiful. Can you relate to my struggles with self doubt? How do you support yourself to move beyond it?