Over the past few days I have been feeling a strong yearning to reconnect with the why behind what I do, and really tune in to see where I have been deviating from this.
While I know I love what I do, there are times when the love gets squeezed out of it. I have previously shared with you how fear hijacked my passion, but this time I feel it runs deeper than that.
I have been feeling a need to reconnect with why I actually began my journey. My journey in to writing on a blog, becoming a coach and launching a business.
Why I Began
I have to be honest. When I started, it was all about me. It was all about how I felt when I was immersed in this work.
I would have tingles of inspiration flow through me when I wrote. A heart-bulging power of love overcame me when I spoke to others about this content. Excitement arose when I followed this feeling and took courageous steps to dive deeper and share it with the world.
That feeling has been tugging at me again, asking me to reconnect with it. To take my attention off the outcomes, the results, the clients, the sales and to come back to me.
To come back to the love I feel in myself when I do this work, rather than focusing on the love I receive from others for that work that I do.
As soon as my attention goes on the external, I lose the love.
So, at the moment it is really about re-connecting with the love. And it is the love, that is my why.
It Is Not Just About Doing What You Love
I am currently completing a phenomenal 12 month mentoring program with Amir Zoghi and the work that I am doing in this program is allowing me see myself and my world in a completely new way.
I am learning that the love I experience for this work, is not just about what I do. This is not just about doing what I love. This is about being love.
I have began to see that I do not love this work because of what I am doing, but rather because of the person I become when I do it.
The love comes from the space I allow myself to drop in to when I write or coach or speak or create. Because of the energy I allow to flow through me. I love the experience of being in that space. It is what makes me feel alive. And that is all that matters.
Remembering My Why
So reconnecting with my why is not just about doing more of what I love. I am already doing that.
Rather, it is about checking in with who I am being while I am doing it. Or in fact, who I am being in general.
How much of me am I allowing to flow through in each moment? How present am I? How connected am I? How in tune am I with my inner being? How alive do I feel?
Coming back to my why is about making the love I feel in each moment more important than the love I am receiving.
It is about allowing the love I feel to drive my decisions, my actions and my creations.
No agenda. No striving for outcomes. Just love.
Have you ever at times felt like you have lost touch with the why behind what you do? How have you supported yourself to reconnect with it? Share your experiences in the comments below.