So it has been over a year since I recorded a video blog. The desire to share myself in this way with you has been tugging at me for months, and I have found every excuse under the sun to not act on it.
I have felt huge resistance to the guidance within me that has been asking me to show up more fully – to be seen, to be heard, to be fully visible.I have procrastinated, avoided, kept myself busy and distracted myself. I have been running from what my heart has been asking me to do.
For the most part, I didn’t even know I was doing it, and that is the scary part.
Sometimes you can’t actually see how small you are playing. You are blind to all your own games. You are believing your own excuses – they are so damn good that you think they are the truth. But they are not, they are just excuses.
What Would It Look Like If You Were Fully Showing Up?
So on Monday morning I woke up with these words ringing in my head; What would it look like if you were fully showing up?
And I knew it was time to answer.
So I pulled out my laptop and I got really honest with each area of my life, and I wrote out what it would look like.
I stared at the page, and I noticed there was a radical difference between what ‘showing up’ would look like, versus what I was doing right now.
It was like someone had just turned the light on. Suddenly I could see myself clearly. The games, the excuses, the fear, the procrastination was all illuminated and I had no choice but to face it.
I looked at my list and saw one thing immediately jump out – Video blogs. My guidance was asking me to make myself more visible and vulnerable. To be seen, to be heard, to connect and to share myself, deeply.
I felt resistance arise. Fears swirled through my mind. The excuses began. I didn’t want to do it.
But I decided it was time to let this go, so I did the opposite of what fear was telling me. I jumped straight onto my computer and recorded a video blog.
And do you know how I felt afterwards?
Free. And alive.
And that’s how you feel when you choose your heart over fear.
Watch The Video
So after watching this video, I want you to ask yourself the same question; “What would it look like if I was fully showing up for what I want?“. Write it out on paper and really look at it. And then notice the difference between what you see written, and what you are currently doing.
Notice the gap.
And if you can clearly see that you have been playing too small, making excuses, avoiding and hiding, I want to encourage you to be gentle on yourself. Avoid the tendency to beat yourself up and make yourself feel like a failure.
And instead, make a decision. Make a decision that you are going to start right now to take new steps and show up in a new way.
I want you to know that who you are right now, is enough. You, just as you are, is enough to make you worthy and deserving of having what you want. You don’t need to be any different, in order to be ready.
No more excuses, procrastinating, playing small and hiding. If there is something sitting within your heart that you have been thinking about, sitting on and mulling over, now is the time to bring it to life.
Not tomorrow. Not a week from now. Not ‘one day’. Right now.
And I want to support you.
I created a new coaching program called Go Deeper Play Bigger which will give you the tools, practices, guidance and personal coaching support to bring your heart-driven dreams to life.
Registration is now open and we begin on July 16th.
Lots of love,