There is no better feeling that being immersed in something you love to do. Something you are truly passionate about.
We love how it feels. We love who we are when we do it. We love it because it enables us to connect with that authentic, truthful space that sits deep within us.
Time stands still. We feel present. The process is effortless. Something seems to move through us and flow out of us. It can be with anything that we love to do, but for me I experience it when I write.
Writing has always been something that I loved to do. When I started my original blog, it was purely because I felt I had so much inside of me that I wanted to share. I loved the process of sitting down, placing my fingers on the keyboard and allowing the feeling inside of me to flow out on to the page.
Has Fear Hijacked Your Passion?
Over the past few years, there have been times where the experience of writing has become less about the sheer enjoyment of it, and more about the creation of an end product.
It became less about me, and more about who was reading it.
I have noticed this at times across all aspects of my business too. My business became less about just doing what I loved and more about attaining outcomes.
When fear hijacks your passion, something that you once loved gets taken over by a fear-driven agenda.
For me, writing on a blog that no one reads, versus writing on a blog with a loyal reader base of thousands of people has felt incredibly different. Writing on a blog as a hobby verses writing on a blog for your business have again, felt different.
Things that were created initially from a space of love can easily turn to be driven by fear, without you even realising it.
How Fear Plays Out
When I say the word fear, don’t get confused. You may not actually feel sensations of being scared or afraid. It is more subtle than that.
Fear plays out in a range of sneaky ways including the need to control, attachments to outcomes, worry about how things will be received, anxiety, and the need to attain something from the outside world in order to feel good enough.
All of these feeling have fear-driven agenda’s behind them.
We write on our blog because we fear that if we don’t we will lose our reader base
We market our biz, because we worry that if we don’t we will not get new clients
We share our work on social media, but then become anxious about how it will be received
We push, force and try to make things happen in order to feel successful and good enough in ourselves
We create new programs because we feel we need more money in order to feel secure.
What Space Are You Coming From?
The truth is I love to write, I love to share the message of my business through marketing and promotion and I love to create new programs. I simply adore this. And when I do this from a place of love, everything just seems to work.
It is not necessarily about what you are doing but, where you are coming from when you do it.
You can either be coming from a space of love, or from space of fear
The way that fear creeps in can happen in such a sneaky way, especially when you still love what you do. It is easy to justify that it is still all about the love of it. But you can tell by how you feel whether or not fear has crept in.
When I write, create, market or promote from a place of love I feel light, present, relaxed. I am almost ‘not thinking’ and the whole process is effortless. I love the process of sharing my message through all of these avenues. And when I do, I just write with one stream of consciousness. I don’t read what I write as I go. I stay in the flow and allow it to all come out in one big lump.
When I write, create, market or promote from a place of fear I feel tense, caught up in my head, and I can hear myself thinking about the outcome or about how what I am creating will be received. I question myself. I over analyse. I write things, delete them, rewrite them, edit them etc.
Return To Love
I took a break from writing and creating which I spoke a bit about here and here. Because I didn’t want to write unless I was loving to write. Everytime I would try to write, it would feel forced and I was writing because I felt I had to.
As I have given myself some space, the desire to write is re-emerging. I feel inspired. I feel that I can simply sit, get present and it will flow. And this is how I want to create everything from now on.
What I create in my business is all about doing what I love to do, rather than striving for an outcome. As soon as I feel I am no longer loving it, and instead I am doing something out of fear I will stop.
I was able to reconnect with my passion by making room for what I love. I am letting go of so many of the things I feel I need to do and I am creating space. When we do this, we create space for the feeling of love and inspiration to once again bubble up within us.
Can you relate to this feeling of having your passion taken over by a fear-driven agenda? I would love for you to share your experiences with me in the comments below.